New Years was kind of awesome. People got so wasted haha... I however was completely sober good little me :) but miserable and missed out on all the fun.
I have no direct resolutions... just trying to fix myself and become what I want to be. As sad as this sounds... I don't like who I am, and you can't like someone else and be in a happy and healthy relationship with the person, expect them to like you, if you can't like yourself first.
So I'm getting less lazy, more serious about my future, and college. O am I scared... terrified really... about college!! I really don't think I have a chance :(
I need a new activity that de-stresses me. It used to be dance. Now... its nothing... I am just always unhappy... with my actions, my friends, my attitude, but you know what? That's my problem. And I will learn how to deal w/ it!
Those are my resolutions. To feel better about myself. How weird... I'm so old... and yet.. I still have problems with my self esteem and confidence. It has nothing to do w/ my looks.. I think I look fabulous... but on the inside... as a person... I think I'm weak. I mean well... but I can't produce results. And as everyone knows, The End Justifies The Means.
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"That's my problem. And I will learn how to deal w/ it!"
.... I think is dumb not to ask for help and try to take it all by yourself. Thats what friends and family is for, and I believe they all really care about u ;)
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